Samantha Manassero, as told to Emily Shiffer

<p>I was always active growing up and played lots of sports. But when I went through puberty, I started to notice changes in my body, including weight gain. I was uncomfortable and insecure in my new figure and didn't have healthy coping mechanisms to deal with my body-image issues. </p>

<p>Throughout high school, I desperately tried to diet (the South Beach diet, Atkins, you name it) in order to fit the skinny Orange County girl stereotype. I developed an eating disorder that I have managed since I was 23 years old. I was stuck in cycles of restricting and bingeing, causing me to lose weightsometimes 100 pounds at a timefor temporary periods, only to gain it back and then some.</p>

<p>While I've always had what I would describe as a complicated relationship with my body and weight, I also struggled with weight gain in a notable way when I became a nurse. I entered a stressful nursing school program, and my mental health took a back seat during that time. For my first job as a nurse, I worked night shifts, which also made it difficult to eat healthy and involved a <a href="https://www.womenshealthmag.com/health/g19989015/side-effects-of-stress/" id="2e81d926-453c-30e6-acca-c79bed6e46e5">  high amount of stress </a> and little sleep. I spent years as a nurse being obese and gaining more and more weight, meanwhile feeling more and more depressed.</p>

<p>By 2017, post-graduate school and after working as a nurse for years, I had reached my heaviest weight. I felt like I hit my rock bottom.</p>

<h1> But that summer, I had a turning-point moment. I was so tired of being alive but not actually living. </h1>

<p>My sister was getting married in June of 2017, and I was her maid of honor. I was absolutely paralyzed by the fear of having to stand up and give a speech at her wedding and having all of the guests looking at me. Knowing those pictures and video would forever document me like that gave me the most anxiety I have ever felt. </p>

<p>I had already become pretty socially withdrawn, missing out on trips or fun events because I was ashamed of my appearance. In addition to that, as someone who had worked as a neonatal ICU nurse, I knew that if I ever wanted to have kids and start a family, I needed to get myself healthy first. The combination of these things <a href="https://www.womenshealthmag.com/health/a27484999/mental-health-stigma/" id="2a325325-d1d5-389c-a26f-c578d59e8940">  motivated me to make my mental health a priority </a> and get healthy, inside and out.</p>

<p>I knew I had to tackle my mental health and disordered eating issues before I could ever physically change. So, I participated in eating disorder treatments and therapies to understand more about myself and why I had developed such a toxic relationship with my body and food. When I felt I was at a healthy point mentally, I knew I could approach weight loss in a safe way.</p>

<h1> What allowed me to successfully keep the weight off for almost three years now didn't have to do with dieting. It was finally finding a physical activity and sport that I truly loved: powerlifting.  </h1>

<p><a href="https://www.womenshealthmag.com/fitness/g22592152/transformation-tuesday-powerlifting/" id="bfadc329-7e41-321f-a51a-593acac21187">  I started powerlifting </a> in 2018 and it has changed my entire life. I love focusing on being strong. This is such a shift in thinking for me; before powerlifting, I worked out solely for aesthetic purposes and obsessed over how I looked. Now, I am fueled by the feeling of being strong, mentally and physicallyand that's the focus of my workouts.</p>

<p>I decided to start competing in powerlifting in 2019, and have done my first two competitions. I usually lift heavy weights on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday. My rest days are Thursday and Sunday, but I still try to either do some form of conditioning (usually 20-30 minutes of stair climbing or walking on an incline on the treadmill). Or, I just enjoy my rest if my body needs it, and I take my dogs on a long walk. </p>

<h1> Powerlifting makes me happy and gives me a reason to want to work out every daybut it has also allowed me to build a better relationship with food.  </h1>

<p>I now know that I need quality nutrition to fuel my body for lifting weights and getting stronger. Being able to be in that peaceful headspace and have that relationship after such a long history of disordered eating is truly the most freeing feeling ever. </p>

<p>Because I lift heavy weights five times a week and weight loss is not my goal, I have had to significantly increase my carb intake in order to have energy and to fuel my workouts. So Ive also started working with a sports nutrition coach who helps me calculate my macros and gives me guidance. </p>

<h1> Heres what I typically eat in a day now: </h1>

<ul><li> <strong> Breakfast:  </strong> Eggs, spinach, potatoes, and mixed berries </li><li> <strong> Lunch:  </strong> Animal protein (fish, chicken, turkey, beef) and veggies with potato or rice </li><li> <strong> Snacks:  </strong> Beef jerky, fruit, nuts, Skinny Pop popcorn, oatmeal, or a protein shake </li><li> <strong> Dinner:  </strong> Animal protein (fish, chicken, turkey, beef) and veggies with potato or rice </li><li> <strong> Dessert:  </strong> I love dark chocolate (specifically Lily's Dark Chocolate with Sea Salt) </li></ul>

<h1> I would never be where I am today if I hadn't taken the time to really understand the connection between the mind and body.  </h1>

<p>I have lost around 150-165 pounds in a healthy, sustainable wayand I'm stronger than I've ever been. My younger self never would've believed I'd be capable of squatting over 250 pounds, deadlifting 350, or going on strenuous hikes. I have my dream job as a flight nurse, and I know I wouldn't have been able to be flying around in a helicopter helping people in my old body, with my old mindset.</p>

<p>But the <a href="https://www.womenshealthmag.com/health/a19942498/eating-disorder-nutritionist/" id="10847f49-85f2-3cf9-a0a5-3a83990c6ea8">  changes in my mental well-being </a> are what really matters. I still have so much life ahead of me, dreams I want to accomplish. It took half of my life for me to really learn how to love myself and be kind to my body. I wish I could tell 15-year-old Sam, You are worthy and you are enough.</p>

'I Got Hooked On Powerlifting And Lost 165 Pounds'

<strong> My name is Samantha Manassero ( <span id="f0c8bb6a-1d8e-3925-a5de-2c5c3a5295fd" itemtype="link" itemscope="itemscope">  @heysamanthaa </span> ), and Im 34 years old. I live in Southern California, and Im an emergency flight/transport nurse. After being stuck in a cycle of disordered eating, I found my love of lifting *heavy* weightsand it changed my relationship with food and helped me lose 165 pounds. </strong>

'Powerlifting Helped Me Build A Better Relationship With Food—And Lose 165 Pounds'

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